controlling my feeling far too long...

well...I just wanted to make sure ya guys know that I`m still alive...

"I wanna hurt myself"

"Wanna cut my arms.."

"..hit my legs.."

"trow up everything"

...

"I wanna feel the pain.."

"which is inside of me.."

"..destroying me.."

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"I`d rather destroy myself.."

"..than be destroyed by someone else"

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"I wanna punish myself for being ..."

"..so stupid.."

"for thinking too much.."

"for being me..."

I hate myself for being me...