~+~Letter to myself~+~

[carey_chan]

Dear Sophie,



writing you a letter must seem kinda weird,deshou?
But I`ve been thinking about it these past days and want to express my thoughts to you.
Forgive me .Even if I should be the one knowing you best I still try to ignore your feelings,desires and fears.
Spending too much time with you alone..
makes me see all your weaknesses and thats something I fear.
That it`ll bring us down,both you an I.
I still have to learn to appreciate things and embrace your whole being.
Your strengh and beauty as much as you unseemliness and faults.

But the reason I`m writing you is not to state our kinda weird relationship but to tell you something important;
something I´ve missed to say to you for far too long.

Sophie,
I´m proud of you.
You did right.

Even though times are tough
you kept on struggling while usually
you would have given up long ago.
I wish for you
to posess the power and the willfullness
to withstand the pressure,
to overcome the temptation to
numb yourself with sleep again.

I´m proud of you.
Thank you for saving your life.

I might not be able to tell you 'I love you'
but I promise you that I won`t let go of your hand..
no matter how hard things might become,
no matter what`ll happen.

`Cause you are that part of me ne.
The part deep within.

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Dear Friendslist,

to most of you my entry must seem..distrubing?
Sorry for that.
I just had to write it off my mind.
and..
ne..

won`t you help my dear Sophie?
just a few words to remind her that there`re ppl
who care for her.
Let`s share memories and a smile.

Minna,
I love you more than you`ll ever know